disappearances can be deceptive

one of my posts has gone missing. it went live for while, later i tried to adapt it and put in more links but now it has disappeared. believe me, it was a good one. no, actually it was a great one. it was a comeback, a renaissance, a startling return to form. but yet now it is now more. at least seemingly, i shall endeavour to resurrect it. but don't get your hopes up, kids. would hate to disappoint all my readers out there. imagine that. mass misery.
so what goes on?
yesterday i played to an empty club. but it was still quite ok. it got busy at the end so i guess i'm with shakespeare on that one.
later i went out and danced a bit, i even made a request, which i don't normally, and they played it. my current song of the moment, george harrison's 'my sweet lord'. which is apparently all about krishna. now i'm now hare krishna devotee but if they all could make music like this i think i might don the pink robes and shave off all but a tuft of hair atop my head. it is a lovely shimmering piece of music. stays the right side of happy-clappy, has a nice crescendo going on, nice lyric play, simple but meaningful. and manages to throw in the old hare krishna chant, hare hare rama rama etc. at first it could seem to be about jesus with the hallelujas etc but mybe that is the effect. and perhaps there is some link between jesus and krishna. i wouldn't know, being neither a biblical scholar nor an expert on hinduism. perhaps someone can look it up and let me know. oh, just found this.
so what else is going on?
i'm off to shoot a commercial just now. playing the part of an england footballer but i will only be seen in silhouette. sounds very film noir, but it isn't meant to be. hopefully my silhouette won't show too badly how little of a footballer's physique i have. we shall see, the truth will out. the game's afoot, watson.
anyway, i've done that now. in reading it seemed but the blinking of an eye but in truth i have been gone these last 5 hours or so and now i have returned to continue my blog. anyway the shoot was good and i felt bad for repeatedly calling some people 'fucking german wankers'. but that was the script and i am merely a player. strutting and fretting my hour upon the stage then heard no more. etc.
but i got about 200 quid for it so i can't complain. and the 'germans' didn't mind. i'm sure they were paid handsomely too.
what's happening in the world? they had a elections in england. local council elections. fascists got in some places. you might not agree with what their saying but they seem to be tapping into something. scary really but if they're the only ones talking about issues that bother people then it's understandable some people may be tempted to vote for them. those same people probably don't realise that they're also voting to ban the trade unions and also to demolish the national health service. but hey, you can't have everything.
rock on.
some british soldiers were shot down in iraq. a lot of young hotheaded iraqis were cheering. not particularly nice but then i'm sure i wouldn't want my country to be invaded either. but i feel bad for the families of those soldiers who died. fighting blair's dirty war. they needn't have been there. they died for nothing. my face is turning blue i'm saying that so much. but i'll keep on saying it. all this flagwaving stuff is nonsense. the war is allwrong and all those who die in it, on both sides, were murdered by bush and blair and all their cronies. not by iraqis. they may have fired the bullet but the shitterati in power are the ones who started this miasma of manure in the first place.
f^ck em.
what else? i don't know. joaquin phoenix did an album of johnny cash songs. worked for jamie foxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.
that's about all for me, i'm worn out after a hard night's shouting. i think i found that other post. will try and send it after this.

rock on, stay beautiful and keep searching.
don't buy bullshit.

later skaters

mr w
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up and down

hello fellow travellers
tonight i went to a very interesting dhamma talk by a guy called yanai postelnik, then i had a massive argument with my girlfriend. what an amazing life i lead.
anyway... such it is. i can only go on trying to make sense of it. i'm not going to tear into my girlfriend. she's just trying to make sense of the world. as i guess we all are.
anyway...
anyway...
anyway...
blair and his cronies are embroiled in this stuff about foreign prisoners who should have been deported but instead went missing. it's this whole thing about being seen to do the right thing, not sending them back to countries with poor human rights records. ok, if they just stole a loaf of bread but anyone who's a rapist, murderer, child molester etc, and isn't meant to be in britain should be sent home. end of story. if they're locked up it's one thing, but then we're still paying for their upkeep. but if they're out we don't really owe them any favours. we gave them a chance and they screwed it up. it's like if you go to your mate's parent's house and his mum makes you a nice dinner but then she catches you giving him a joint, she kicks you out. end of story. she doesn't need to worry if you get a bollocking at home. that's not her problem.
minor crimes, maybe we'll let that go, you might be having a hard time in life, but serious nasty violent stuff? see you later. don't forget to write.
i should write james bond's lines.
zac moussaoui got life. ok, i guess. his mum wants him sent back to france. no, keep him over there. he was sentenced there. i think whatever he did he has to pay for. it's widely known that 911 wasn't all it seemed anyway, but what was meant to have happened? how come he got arrested but 911 wasn't known about? oh it was? not officially of course, not on record anyway. but i just don't really get what he got arrested for. anyway, he was acting like a bit of a silly-billy in court with his us versus them rhetoric. he's just another guy from the muslim world for whom life hasn't worked out so well, so he's been brainwashed into trying to be an islamic hero of some sort. it's all nonsense of course, he's just a guy in an orange prison suit. but this is the problem with this imbalanced world we live in. people are looking for some way to count. the current state of the world is what's wrong. there's this new huge list of endangered species. no wonder, people in the third world are destroying their resources trying to keep up with their first world counterparts. and in africa people are so hungry they're killing off the hippopotamus for food. but we have tv. and we have ipod. and we have happy meals. and big brother. and silly-cone implants. and charles barkley's 10 million dollar gambling habit. yet people are starving. and the world is being eaten away. how about we get rid of this rubbishy system and get back to being more natural? having simple tastes. helping others. having a community. the current way is obviously not working. but if you don't hear about it then you don't fix it. clever, huh?
media control.
1984.
f%ck! wake up people...
love you
mr w
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gadzooks

i have returned.
it has been many days since my last blog, father. i have only had pure thoughts in that time. and my actions were quite ok, i think.
but much has happened. in my tiny personal world and in the wider world, too.
i have been working on my screenplay. a story of a man running away from his past. you can almost imagine that husky old american dude introducing it in the trailer. 'Kevin Costner, is a man chased by demons, from inside his own head, in Diminishing Returns. In theaters now. Certificate 15'.
maybe.
anyway, we'll see. not expecting costner for the lead role, as it's set in england. and he's got enough on his plate at the moment. i almost said he's got his hands full but i stopped myself.
so, yeah, that's going on. workwise i still haven't found my new niche, but that may happen when the script is done. god willing. the universe willing. whatever your chosen supreme being may be. if you're an atheist then just keep your fingers crossed for me.
What's happening in the wider world?
Too much almost. One of the main things at the moment is still Iran. a particularly thorny issue this one, as i've said before. I don't want them to have weapons of mass destruction, partly because of what ahmadinejad said about wiping israel off the map, but mainly because i don't want anyone to have them. as a child growing up in the 80's i often had nightmares about nuclear war. as i got older these dreams waned. perhaps because my brain dealt with it, or perhaps because it didn't seem such a real threat. but the weapons were still there. and they will be until we all wake up and get rid of them totally and utterly. and nuclear power too. we have the resources already. we just need to use them better. but then we can't do anything better as long as we're ruled by crooks who have our worst interests at heart.
so there you go. iran, don't get the weapons, please, just because we don't want anyone to have them.
what else? labour's in scandals again. hmm weird how all this stuff comes out at the same time. why isn't there a steady stream of scandal? there seems to be plenty of it about, but it just comes out in big blitzes every once in a while. why is that? because it's organised that way. it's supposed to happen. it makes you think you are making a difference when you vote. and you're so silly you believe it.
anyway, go and get broken flowers on dvd, it's ace. and the girl in the nude scene only looks about 15 but she's actually over 20, i felt a bit weird about that at first. so, rest easy.
and while you're there you can hire 'the cranes are flying'. a lovely story of wartime russia.
and maybe 'come and see'. though that is a lot harder going.
and you should listen to puccini's 'o mio babbino caro' (if that link works). heartrending. a snippet of it here if the other didn't work.
right, enough.
love you all.
mr w
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age

went to football practice today. the creaky old bones somehow mustered enough energy to drag me around on a cross country run and even managed a bit of ball-practice until the manager spotted my failings and told me to do some work with the goalkeeper. fine, until i found out the goalkeeper was injured and wasn't doing anything. so i stood with the injured guys. it was like being back at school. character-building though, apparently. was a good old work out, despite the crestfallen finale. i guess the scouts from real madrid missed the plane over.
what else? more relationship problems. arguments. over-sensitivity. double standards. but apart from that she's fine. i don't think i'm such hard work, but i'm being made out to be.
anyway, tonight i sleep alone. out of choice. off to london wednesday. so tomorrow night is out. and tonight i could have gone over there but the presence of her room-mate puts a dampener on any amorous plans i may make.
i'm working on my screenplay. again. still at the preparation stage. but my chef d'oeuvre will appear one day. believe me.
saw lord of war at the weekend. very good. too tired to go into detail right now but worth seeing definitely. was that the world's worst review? in writing terms, maybe.

world events? more shit, more lies, occasional glimmers of hope offset against a huge living tableau of misery.

peace

moving pictures

i saw the movie 'syriana' tonight. very good, actually, part of this double whammy of political george clooney movies. wasn't mad about 'good night and good luck'. interesting subject matter but not so involving movie-wise. for me, at least.
but 'syriana' was much more to my liking. perhaps because of it's even greater relevance to current events. they both relate to current events but g.n.a.g.l is more allegorical, whereas this movie deals with events very similar to what is happening right now. in a way, you know where the movie is going all the time but it's still gripping and pacy and has enough humanity and realistic characterisation to stop it from descending into didacticism.
it shows exactly the way things work with 'the powers that be' in their need for instability in the world to keep us distracted and them rich. it flashes up their disinformation and double-agency. it also shows on a smaller scale how terrorists are recruited in used in much the same way as we are used in as pieces in society's bigger games. ultimately, modern society, wherever in the world, depends on power and keeping the status quo. and as long as we stay diverted, the rules and systems may alter a little here and there, but as long as we stay occupied with nonsense we will keep things the way they are... unfair.
so...
that was that.
what else? reid's considering a pardon for private farr. we'll see what happens.
when are we going to let women take over the world? surely we can't hang on too much longer. they can't do a worse job than men. that's for sure. equally bad? i'd have to see it to believe it. and before you jump on me and say that condoleezza (?) rice is a woman and she is as bad news for humanity as bush is, i'll qualify my statement by saying i'm only including human beings in that, and that rules her out.
check this dude out and tell me men are not the reason this world is in a mess.

anyway, so must it be, right now at least.
now i hate to quote nazis but hermann goering was right on point and could have been talking about bush when he came out with this statement at the nuremberg trials.

"Of course the people don't want war. But after all, it's the leaders of the country who determine the policy, and it's always a simple matter to drag the people along whether it's a democracy, a fascist dictatorship, or a parliament, or a communist dictatorship. Voice or no voice, the people can always be brought to the bidding of the leaders. That is easy. All you have to do is tell them they are being attacked, and denounce the pacifists for lack of patriotism, and exposing the country to greater danger."

so there you go. he just explained exactly what's happening now. add this to the burning of the reichstag and you've got the war on terror and 9/11 fifty years previous. you couldn't make it up. well, you could make it up, like bush did. do we never learn? or do the americans never learn and we just suffer because of it? no, we never learn either, though perhaps more of us in europe are up on what's going on. but still not enough of us. blair is still in power, so britain's out of any competition for the most clued-up people.

it looks like the christian convert in afghanistan may be freed. the case is falling apart for various reasons. god help him if they release him to an angry pack of people waiting to do god's supposed bidding. surely if god wants him killed a tree will fall on him or he'll choke or something. if it's god's will why are people wanting to do it for the all-powerful guy? seems weird to me.

now that's two stories today that have gone the opposite from where i thought they were going, so if i keep saying the world will only get worse...

you never know...

god bless you, whichever god that may be. and if you have no god, may life bestow you with gifts anyway.

peace
and
love

mr w
X

clocks gone forward

and i'm up late. wonder how long it will take me to get back into the routine of pre-summertime. not that it's actually summer. but it's 2.30 and i'm pretty wide awake if not incredibly bushy-tailed. 2.30 am, that is.
so today i hibernated yet again. only nipping out briefly to forage for pizzas which i store in my cheeks until spring. but i did stuff. i cleaned the bathroom. no mean feat for a single aquarian 30-something guy. 36, actually, i wasn't being vain. just 30-something sounded better in context.
and i learned some stuff on the computer. and tidied my room up a bit. and posed in front of the mirror. and didn't have a shower. and didn't wear any underpants all day. felt good but tricky after you go to the toilet. got to make sure you give it a good shake.
anyway, so that was my day. apart from a recurrence of an old argument with my significant other, which i will not elaborate on too much at this point. as it should never have occurred in the first place.
and in the wider world?
that rancid slab of frozen dog piss, john reid, has refused to pardon a private who was shot in the 1st world war for being a deserter. why not? what difference would it make? the main reason i reckon is reid probably wishes they could do the same. anyway, my message to his daughter, still fighting to clear his name to this day at the age of 92, is he is forgiven, by anyone who has a the slightest shred of humanity in his heart or is able to cry the tiniest tear at the death of an innocent man. unfortunately this does not include the 'labour' party.

and charlie sheen deserves maximum credit for using his platform and right to free speech to voice his concern about the official version of what happened on 911. like many people capable of independent thought, i.e. not in a tv induced coma, he says he is not convinced by what he's been told. well, considering that it's george w bush doing the telling, i'm not surprised he's not convinced. they are a bunch of lying bloodsucking leeches sitting on us and eating our brains with their shitty tv programs and celebrity magazines and music that tells us to hate each other and get drunk and be violent and treat women like crap. this stuff is what they want us to be into. they don't want us to wake up and love each other as brothers and sisters and equals.
if you want to see some video on this it's up on youtube.com but i haven't got the link to hand. please click and read the one above at least. and spread the word. get these f_ckers out!

ok, enough from me now.

take care my beauties.

love

mr w x

world, oh weird world

'been away so long i hardly knew the place...'
wrote the beatles... anyway, i'm back and the world is still weird. i haven't left the world. just been busier living in it than writing about it.
i was away in england for a while. always interesting. compared to sweden it's very different. much louder and the streets more populous. much less snow too of course, though there was a delicate sprinkling upon the rooftops during my visit.
and so i'm back, living my life. still looking for that elsusive job to interest me and save my poor eardrums.
but all i'm finding at the moment is dj work. so it will have to continue. but i am working on it. it's a curse being easily distracted. i'm working on that, too.




















so what's happening in this mad world?
well, they brought civilisation and freedom to afghanistan. freedom to be hanged if you're a christian. isn't this stuff supposed to have ended? what is civilised and free if this is what happens? we're told they had to get rid of the taliban because of their restrictions on freedom for their citizens yet now they want to put a man to death, for believing in the same god via different book. it's this paranoid version of islam that worries me. sorely god can sort his own affairs out, can't he? you would think so, being all-powerful and all the rest of it. so why do these self-appointed wankers think they can put people to death for changing books? because we let them. not we, but you get my point, it's the same kind of situation with our wankers too. they're locking us down more and more and thinking of more and more bizarre punishments, because the alternative to this is waking us up. but if we woke up they'd all be out of a job, and out of power, which is the major currency here.
i was going to write some stuff about blair selling off the house of lords but i can't be bothered with him. he's a jellyfish.
loads has happened but i guess i must keep on with what happens as and when and forget other things, unless they bear some relevance to what i'm thinking about that day.
well, i am off to do some chores.
i love you all.

quick

hello, i am tired. so will be quick here. haven't blogged recently for whatever reason.
damn i'm tired. thinking now maybe i should just leave it and post something another time.
if i don't say anything else i have to say that tony blair is a f+cking liar. end of discussion. i will go into why but i will not hear otherwise. he said there were wmd's in iraq. barefaced lie. but his biggest lie, and possibly his most sickening was repeated recently. he said he believed in god. he said he asked god about what to do regarding iraq and what happened after was all based upon this spiritual request. my fat smelly arse, you didn't speak to god. you never do, you are a mealy-mouthed forked-tongued, poisonous demon shat out by satan to cause misery in this world (as bill hicks might say). you are devoid of god. he would not talk to you as you operate in the darkness, trying to divert other people away from the light. you should be exorcised from this planet asap. god, if we believe in him, created us, we are part of him. why would he create all these people and then create saddam hussein to be in power and cause all of the innocent iraqi deaths? this is not the way it has to be. the events that take place in this world are designed to bring us towards greater consciousness. all that happens now must bring about a spiritual revolution. blair's actions included. his actions are unnecessary and hideous. we need to wake up and see our connection to each other and the world. we need to see that we are here a short while and then we die. the universe is ever-changing. the events in iraq should be waking us up to the fact that we need to be rid of corrupt lying f*ckbags like bush and blair and finding new ways to share this planet. their friends put saddam in power. then he killed our brothers and sisters in iraq. now more of them are dying as the new generation of power craving western sickos want to control the iraqi oilfields. we are not saving them, we are not protecting them. we are rabble-rousing. we are causing untold destruction by these actions. and i mean we, as long as we allow these supercilious c_ntscabs to carry on in power. blair a christian. my arse, i repeat. but he can say it because he is in a long line of people who said the same. and there are many today who carry guns and call themselves religious men. they are not religious, they just use their twisted version of scripture to make you think they are right. they are wrong. religion is being used as a tool to continue the misery of millions. have a relation to god/the universe/ whatever you want to call it . but avoid being railroaded into acting on behalf of your religion. or your country. or whatever. you must have room to complain and stand up and say 'NO!'. it must end. but it doesn't end as long as you play their game.
wow, i'm awake now.

where's my blair voodoo doll?

peace

mr w x

pensées

hello again

how are you all? i'm ok. had a few drinks the other night, for the first time in a while. felt pretty lethargic the following day. dunno, quite strange. can't decide with this whole drinking thing. haven't the self-control to limit myself, but sometimes i don't drink much anyway. but i can go for long periods without any. i just don't like having to write the next day off. i could live without it, i guess. tricky when everyone else drinks and it's so pervasive in our culture. i don't know. life will bring it's lessons anyway.
had some more thoughts on relationships. i'm trying being more forgiving. it works pretty well. obviously within reason, i wouldn't recommend someone staying with an abusive partner and endangering themselves. but sometimes you can blame the person just for being themselves. obviously that self is not fixed, just like your own. yours isn't fixed, believe me, you are constantly changing, even if you're trying to hang on to some idea you have of yourself. but anyway, forgive them, point out things where they may be going wrong, but do it from a position of love and offering freedom. if in the end you find you are incompatible with the person then you should both be free to say so. but in the meantime allow them to be themselves, and make them feel happy about their best sides. you could always be great friends, even if you break up.
i did another picture. not sure how much it looks like me. or the photograph from which the inspiration came. it partly reminds me of the style of ron lim who used to do the silver surfer cartoons back in the early 90's when it was rocking. haven't read it recently so i can't comment on its rockingness at present, but there were times i read it and had lost its way somewhat. hopefully that's been rectified by now. and when are marvel going to make it into a movie? i'll buff up if you give me the part.



'to me, my board!'.

what news? another horrible story of humanity's worst behaviour. you can't help wondering how it gets to this stage. i mean this guy was obviously incredibly, perhaps irreparably, f*cked up. but how come he's able to do this. the mother should have stopped him, you might say. but so many people are sheep these days. their humanity and connection to others and the world around them is getting eroded. more so in the west/'civilised' world, i think. i know people in the third world kill their babies. totally different reasons, but still horrible, unnecessary and wrong, but they don't stick their faces in fires and smash them up repeatedly. i'm not excusing any baby killings but torture to death is much much worse. but there are a lot of mentally ill people walking around at the moment. we live in a mentally ill world. there are so many things that we accept because we grow with them but if you look at them in a different way they are really messed up. people who speed along roads are mentally ill. they are, there is no need for it. the believe it's an adrenaline rush, maybe it is but they do it because they can't cope with life without it. racist people are mentally ill. it isn't their fault. whatever race they belong to, perhaps they were brought up that way, perhaps something happened and they went that way. however it was, they are dividing up the world and the universe in the wrong way. if you have political views about immigration, that's your business, but if you hate someone because of some idea you have about their racial origins then you are mentally ill. if you a violent man (or woman...) and go out looking for trouble, be it football hooliganism, happy slapping, anything, you are mentally ill. all of these people as far as i'm concerned have a good case for being sectioned under the mental health act. so many parts of our society are just totally ill. the emphasis is wrong. it's all greed and me me me. but occasionally people come along and try to change things. che guevara, jesus, etc. and look what happens to them. but don't give up. we can still win the fight. we can prove that we don't need competition. we can turn it around and stop living in a world where people are more interested in nicole richie's weight than the state of the oceans.
we can, should, must and will.

stay beautiful, my people.

the return of the kid

good evening, you lovely b*stards.
been away a while. only managed one measly little post. otherwise engaged, otherwise i would have done it. was offline and in the country for a while. bunburying, as oscar wilde would have it. if only you knew...
so things have happened and life has moved on. i am having a (mid-life?) crisis. not sure where to turn in life. i never really am sure but i'm aware of the unsurety right now. and it's also a financially tricky one, potentially. but all things will turn themselves around one way or another.
i am thinking of cutting back on the ear-destroying life of the dj and finding gainful and rewarding employment that doesn't involve being shouted at by drunks at 4 in the morning. so i'm not going to become a taxi driver or work in a kebab shop either.
time to use my reputed (once upon a time at least) creativity. fingers crossed i will find something. i may have to take some other work in the meantime to supplement my income. we shall see.
i did that drawing above. any feedback welcome. apart from suggesting inserting it into some part of my body.
what's in the news. civil war in iraq. horrible. can't help wondering if it's begun by agents dressed as iraqis, like the time when some of them got arrested and then 'our boys' destroyed the prison so they could escape. anyway, just when the iraqis need each other more than ever it's all going off. and looking into the story about the disguised sas agents i came across this... the plot thickens. unless you knew how thick it was already. in which case you're probably part of a sinister, power-craving cabal of sick, rich people intenting on destroying all that is beautiful in humanity (and this is quite interesting too, a blogger's ideas about iraq etc).
if you are ready for a really horrible story click here. all i can think is that he didn't know she was going to die but still, an absolutely horrible story. just shows how selfishly obsessed we are these days.
ok, enough for now. got to split.
don't believe the hype. you're much better than that.

mr w

X

parallel universe

'dick' cheney shot his friend. why couldn't it be the other way around?
surely i'm not the only person wondering this.

peace and love, even to neo-cons. especially to neo-cons, they need it more.

mr w x

mad world

hello my lovelies.
how is the world with you? not too awful, i hope. bringing you some good things. fingers crossed and all that.
i'm fine. saw a movie tonight. GITMO. see it if you get a chance. fills you in on something of what's going/been going on at guantanamo bay. the place with the guys who are fighting for your freedom by locking people up without charge, with no regard to their human rights, subjecting them to torture etc. just so you know who the good guys are. worth seeing. and my friend k did the music.

some guys robbed a pub in england and the police took descriptions of one of them. the witnesses were shocked at the e-fit picture the cops came up with as apparently it didn't look like him. here it is.


police are looking for a man with a comedy nose, un-matching ears and a bit of carpet for a moustache. and doll's hair. i mean, what the f%ck is that? he shouldn't be too hard to spot if he looks like that though. yeah i can see what they meant, the witnesses, it doesn't look like anybody. is this how computers help the police? making these? i could do better on a zx81.

i want to write more about guantanamo bay but i'm quite tired. i have to mention in case i never come back to it, that there are mercenaries over there being employed by the west. no rules of engagement re: human rights etc. and they don't have to report the casualties if these guys die. they're using renegades to fight a dirty war because they can't win it fair and square. this is the price of freedom. freedom is the price of freedom. but as long as you think you're free it's ok. so if you hear about contractors dying in iraq it may well mean mercenaries. just so you know.

alright

signing off

love you all

mr west x

numbers

does anyone have any statistics on how much money the peoples of the 'civilized' world spend in an average weekend on booze? no offence intended, not implying none of us are civilised, just that i wonder where one draws the boundaries of civilisation. but it must be a huge amount of money. even just what london spends. never mind all the other cities. it's unbelievable. now, don't get me all wrong, i'm not hacking at you telling you not to drink, that's your own business. i can talk about my booze free life. actually, yes, i can, since it's my blog. but right now the point i'm making is how many problems we could solve if we just stayed in one weekend and gave that money to charity. and i'm not just talking about what others should be doing. i've got no money anyway, that's one reason why i'm not out drinking these days. i don't know, i was just thinking about it earlier. people happier in the rest of the world, us over here feeling like getting up in the morning. the sewage system having it easy for once. big idea. but i guess we need big ideas now, people saying 'why do we keep doing everything the same way?'. it's obviously not working as well as it might.

other stuff... all this crap with the embassies burning. some people in the muslim world didn't want their religion and culture to be associated with terrorism. so they had a huge demonstration and smashed up and set fire to some buildings. makes sense. hmmm.
now, i'm not religious but i think, and i'm sure i'm not alone, this has got a bit out of hand. if someone who is not a muslim decides to portray someone of whom they are not a devotee, what is wrong with that? i can understand we need to be aware of other people's sensitivities and some of the pictures went too far, but the idea that people who have absolutely no relation to a religion whatsoever should adhere to something as if they were a part of it strikes me as ridiculous. from the small research i've done there is nothing in the koran banning depictions of mohammed or allah. it is a muslim tradition however. but then taken literally there shouldn't be any depictions of any person or animal in muslim tradition as this is seen as idolatry. should we take all such pictures out of our art galleries as well? it just seems too much to ask. people in some countries eat animals that are kept as pets in other countries. but we don't have a problem about it as both sides understand that other people have different ways of doing things. this is the problem here. expecting other people to live your way. now i'm a big critic of the part the west often plays in the muslim/arab world but i think the leaders in many of those countries have work to do in terms of controlling those people that go around acting like maniacs over such matters. some of the pictures went too far, i agree. but the idea that they shouldn't be able to publish pictures of mohammed is just too much i think. i think press freedom sometimes goes in the wrong direction but in this case it has been blown out of all proportion, and burning embassies and boycotting goods is not the way to respond to the actions of a newspaper. i shudder to think where this will end. hopefully in greater understanding, but i don't know. at least the danish bacon industry won't notice any difference...
oh and those silly fellas from hizb-ut-tahrir shouting '7/7 on it's way' should be tickled to death, unless they renounce all stupidity from now on. after a good tickling, though. i'm not going to give a link to them as they've been naughty and should have their board-games confiscated.

so that's all for now.

oh, actually you should read damien hirst's book 'on the way to work'. it's very interesting reading. interviews. it's a bit like talking to your mad mate at the pub. familiar, scary, true and strangely nice.

learn to think that everything you think you know may be bollocks.

see you later

mr w

X

nuclear winter

hello lovers
how's things? y'alright?
i am, i'm pretty okay. i mean i'm good, as the americans say. i'm fine as us brits say. i'm pretty okay as us understaters say.
not much news in my life. snow everywhere here just now. f#cking beautiful and amazing but slippery. bit like myself when i was a young scamp. a young scampi. a young fry. scampi and fries. do you want that to go? no i want it to stay. but anyway, yes it's a symphony of white out there just now. weird thing, snow. you feel crap about that fact that it means it's freezing cold but that withered poet inside you who disappeared when you were about 14 still gets woken from his ancient sleep and his loins begin to stir and he dips his quill in the inkwell of life yet again and you almost believe he's worth listening to. until you turn on the telly and stare at someone's tits or wish you had a lot of money.
imagine if you had billions of dollars to spend. you'd look around the world deciding what to spend it on. poverty, eradicating disease, protecting the environment, food for the starving, weapons, wars... how can it be jusitified to spend 440 million dollars on wars? and they're not even winning them. don't they see if they spent a bit of money teaching countries how to support themselves and each other better that would have a knock-on effect that would improve things for everybody? wars haven't ended wars, they just engender more wars. why shouldn't the same be true of peace? let's give it a go. can't hurt to try it. even if it goes wrong it can't be any worse than it is now. crazy idea. peace is boring.
now the u.s. is playing tit-for-tat with chavez. he expelled a u.s. diplomat for spying, so now they've done the same. silly really but then what do you expect? silly little children playing silly little games. children would know better, sorry kids, no offence. i'm not 100% on chavez. it's tricky being 100% on people you have met, never mind ones you haven't, and even trickier with politicans anyway. but i am 0% on bush so i guess i'll lean to the left on this one. i know what the u.s. has got up to throughout latin america over the years and if venezuela does its own thing without u.s. intervention then i'm all for it.
then there's this nonsense.... that bush and blair had some meeting where they 'decided' they'd invade the oilfields, i mean iraq. like they hadn't been told to long before, if they even needed telling. f$cking hell, tell me something i don't know. two cynical pretend-christian western liars invade iraq and we're supposed to think it was something they sat down and discussed. they were told to by their bosses and did as ordered. end of story.
do you think bush could find iraq on a map? or even texas? just wondering.
so, dunno what else to bother you with. i painted that self-portrait at the top. good eh? maybe not. each to his own. i'm kind of getting back into painting. got my muse back since i stopped drinking. maybe you think it's crap. it might be, it might even be meant to be. i don't know.

well, give someone a hug today. even a stranger on the bus, or at least a smile. go on.

love you all, you sexy things

mr w

relationships and other troubles

there's not really much i can say about relationships that hasn't already been said. the easy ones never last but the difficult ones do.
i know it's all about learning about the other person and thereby learning about yourself. i just wonder where i got this knack of picking people who don't get me.
so i struggle on, trying to be vocal and clear and honest and yet i don't receive understanding for it. i have to repeat myself over and over again to a point where i feel bad for having my own opinion. and i should not feel that way. anyway, all this crap gives me a headache. stress which i don't need. now or ever. but i will soldier on in the vainglorious hope that things will improve. but you can't force a person to begin understanding. they have to do it of their own volition. and if that volition is not forthcoming then the stress ensues.
so right now i am concerned by nonsense. which is not really how i want to be. but i will let it pass. safe in the knowledge that i have my faults but i am ready to admit and rectify them.
please don't be influenced by any perceived negativity here. i hope your relationships are working well.

love

microcosm

good evening, brothers and sisters. i speak to you in a state somewhat jaded. i didn't sleep well last night, but i have managed to busy myself with various little errands throughout the day. i slept in a strange bed last night. not completely strange as in unknown, i have slept in it a number of times before, but strange as in nigh on impossible on which to sleep. there are about 3 mattresses on said bed which i believe is more than faintly ridiculous. 'keep a bed simple and sleep well' is my motto. well, from now on it's my motto about beds. but i had an amazing dream in my last bout of sleep. it was some kind of movie/videogame/real-life thing where you could watch it and be in it at the same time. and it was all real live-action but you could do amazing stuff like in a video game, such as filing away a part of an iron fence and then the sharp part at the end would erode the rest of the fence away, like a fuse burning, and finally it would attack the person at the bottom of the fence. and just before i woke up i saw a huge lycanthrope-like creature which would scare the crap out of anybody. luckily i woke up almost immediately afterwards. don't ask me what it all means.
anyway.... what happens on the reality tv show known as planet earth during this most recent segment?
1/ some people had a narrow escape at a bullfight when a bull managed to leap into the crowd. they killed the bull straight away (no one expected that at a bullfight, i'm sure). anyway somebody got a gash for their troubles. the moral is 'if you're a sadist, get some psychiatric help a.s.a.p.'
2/ some more of bush's old muckers are in court. they were the ones who got caught with their fingers in the rather large tills. you can still go to prison for that stuff. invading countries and killing thousands of innocent people for your own financial and political ends is still ok though, apparently.
3/ transexuals will be allowed two i.d. cards when (i wish i could say if but it looks like 'when') they bring them in, if they are pre-op. what if they don't go through with it in the end? do they have to hand one back? and what about hermaphrodites? or asexual people?

so there's some of it. i'm a bit too tired to think of anything else from the news right now. i've been fixing up my room today, and hopefully, thereby, my life. we shall see how that develops. now i'm going to watch a movie and drink some relaxing herbal tea. there was a time i'd have been out partying but now it's slippers and a warm drink.

be beautiful and honest, my lovely humans. take care of your little bit of the planet.

love

mr w

THERE IS A GOD

AND HE HAS RETURNED TO BLESS US WITH HIS BOUNTEOUS GIFTS.
LET HAPPINESS REIGN THROUGHOUT THE LAND.
LO! THERE SHALL BE MUCH REJOICING
AND THE LAMB SHALL BE LED BY THE STRIKER
AND THE GOAL MOUTH WILL BE WIDE
AND THE BALL SHALL RESIDE ETERNALLY IN THE BACK OF THE NET.
HERE ENDETH THE LESSON.

happy returns vs no return

greetings, people of the internet.
i am back from my trip to england. finally i return to my blog. the incessant ramblings of a confused and ageing man.
so what has been happening? to be honest, i'm not actually too sure. not much, event-wise. though i did see some part of the whale saga. i saw the barge fly by with the whale atop. but not longer after this i found out it had died. small wonder, under the circumstances. one can only hope that next time they'll have a better idea of what to do. though when next time will be is hard to say as there hasn't been a whale sighted in the last century in the thames until last weekend. but it wasn't done well, despite the best intentions. they spent three days scaring the crap out of the poor thing, surrounding it with boats and flashing lights and then when its nerves were shot to pieces they managed to scoop it onto a boat. it was already too late by then. i said from the start they should have tranquilised it and carried it back to the sea. but i'm no marine expert. so maybe that wouldn't work. but maybe it wouldn't have been any worse than giving it the experience of being in the world's scariest underwater nightclub.
my detox.... has been going ok. but no one's told me how well i'm looking. though that may be just british reserve (i like to think so). i have cheated though. one day i was going cold turkey for chocolate and didn't make it to the other side. the fear got to me. but after eating it i felt this weird sugar rush and then moodiness afterwards. so i'll try to avoid sugar where possible.
but anyway... i feel good. so that must be something.
haven't seen much of the news recently so will have to get back to you all on that one. no doubt more lies and bombs.

love each other

mr w

love you long time

just read an amazing story. you can read it here. it shows things don't have to be the way you expect them to be. maybe bush should read it, and see that there's another way.
meanwhile... bin laden has apparently made a tape and released it to al-jazeera. he's dreaming up more 'evil plans' apparently. if it's actually him speaking (it's only an audio tape you see). you'd think he'd have started using cd's by now. surely he has a computer. anyway, he's offered some kind of truce. details are sketchy at best but this tape won't change much. it'll scare those misguided, scared people who can't see the bigger picture. you know, the ones who think we're winning. won't really make any difference to those of us who can think without the aid of fox news.
so, what am i up to, you're all wondering? i'm off to england in the morning. and i'm working tonight so i'll be 'doing a through-er' as they say. no sleep til london. and even then not til at least ten a.m. but i'm hard, you see, i can take it. i make rocks weep just by scowling at them. i've reduced whole villages to hysterical fits of tears just by baring my teeth.
stay up all night? kid's stuff. i've been doing it for years. in fact it's a good job they have winter and longer nights because otherwise people might think i was a cissy. i laugh at long winter nights drawing in. i sneer at cold and lonely mornings with only a cup of lukewarm tea for company.
so, anyway, it's going to be a long night.
not sure when i'll blog again. hopefully not too long from this moment.
until then, be brave my people, the future needs you now.

silly games men play

no, i don't mean in love. in hate, if anything. take this whole business about iran. they are trying to build a nuclear power facility, which they have every right to do. if someone else can do it then why shouldn't they? they may also be trying to make nuclear weapons. i can only hope not. not just because it's iran but because it's one more country posessing things that no country should have. but then, the point is if one has it then why shouldn't another? oh, iran is dangerous. hmmm. so are some people who have nuclear weapons, most notably america. the worrying thing with iran is what they said about wiping israel off the map. but then israel has nuclear weapons. they could more easily wipe iran off the map. and perhaps would like to, too. and then some. so all this nonsense about who has weapons and who wants them. perhaps if the powers-that-be in the u.n. wanted iran to give it up, maybe they should set a better example. why do we keep the nukes if we don't plan to use them? for defence? defence against what? other nukes? but we don't let our enemies have them. it's such a disgusting double standard. i don't want iran to have nuclear weapons because i don't think anyone should have them. any country making or posessing them should be made to stop. but unless everyone's muscly uncle, sam, stops having them there is no point in trying to rid the world of them. 'one standard for us, another one for everyone else'.
on the trashclub message board i saw these two items. part one is a cartoon strip telling you not to believe in evolution but that man and the dinosaurs were created 6000 years ago. together. in six days. now evolution is just a theory but since we find human remains and artefacts from longer than 6000 years ago, what are we to think? kind of rules out that version, n'est-ce-pas? i don't understand why we can't have god and evolution. we dont have to take the bible at face value do we? we miss its true message if we ignore its allegorical and mystical aspects. i'm sure plenty of buddhists don't believe that the buddha was born walking. it doesn't make them any less buddhist. they are focusing on the message beneath. not the surface text. but to the people who enjoy these strip cartoons that was probably a bad example. buddhists are heathens...
the second one tells you that islam is evil. quite a strong statement by most people's thinking, i would hope. they give examples why. some of them are actually quite interesting but since i haven't read the koran or the hadith i couldn't be sure on their veracity.
but for me, personally, i think the sooner we get away from all religion the better. all it does is divide people and the earlier we see our deeper connection to each other the earlier we can set about saving this planet. now, don't get me wrong. i'm not saying don't be religious. i'm just saying nobody and no religion has a monopoly on the truth.
so, be true to what you believe, but don't forget how much we humans can get things wrong.