relationships

hmmm.... do they always have to be difficult? i guess they almost always have to contain some level of difficulties, like anything in life. but it seems like just when you think things are getting ok, suddenly they say 'oh no, he's getting comfortable' and turn the opposite way.
i don't know. 'opposites attract' they say. but perhaps if you go against type and go for someone who you don't have so much in common with then you're more likely to pick up on their pecadillos than you would do with someone more akin to your own personality. hmmm... i don't know. maybe it just doesn't work but it has to get to crisis point before you realise it. we shall see.

moral dilemma news... what happens if you are fairly skint (penniless for you non-brits) and you get offered a job working for a company you cannot abide? what should one do in this situation? i'm pretty much broke right now, but i've been offered a casting for a part in a mcdonald's commercial. i was planning on going to it but now i just don't feel right about it. i haven't got a good word to say about mcdonald's and would rather eat my own toenails, given the choice, than eat there. unless i was very drunk or very hungry and in a strange town which had no other nearby option. so what should i do? i'm not famous so i wouldn't be using my influence to make people go to mcdonald's, and i'm broke so i could use the money. BUT... life will take care of me anyway. i really believe this was a choice thrown up by life to see what i would do. i'm going to stand up and be counted. the only thing i feel bad about is letting the casting agents down as they will have been expecting me. i'll call them of course but i feel bad about messing them around. but i really feel i have to stand up for what i believe in. it could turn out that i'm totally wrong about this. i am quite sure it won't. i won't starve. and i will have stamped my foot like a precocious child and said 'NO! I WILL NOT DO IT!'. and so it must be. i don't want to speak empty words and say i care about things and then go ahead and do the opposite. even if my principles bring me bad luck it will only be temporary. and i'm pretty sure ultimately good things will come of it. even if not for me. i feel i want to get deeper into this subject but my brain begins to drift like snow across the tundra, the clock moves on and drags me with it. i surrender and offer my mind to the gods of slumber.
good night, my brothers and sisters.
here's a nice funny story which even manages to throw in a compliment for the english... such a rare thing in these strange days...

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/europe/4539688.stm